Me before…



The last couple of days had me questioning myself about what’s next.

And you see, since young, I pretty much think VERY VERY FAR ahead.  If I get a new pencil box at 7, I be estimating when will my current one be worn enough for replacement and sometimes it could be when till I am 8 for I like to use new things at new start.

So when i say “next”, I meant in my 40’s. For the next 6 years, my focus is to own a place of my own and how to and if i should start exploring financial freedom ways from now. If possible, i really like to study or live abroad for a year while in my 30s.

And what comes after that is pretty much of a blank canvas. Of course life goes on from there if all goes well but if i want things to happen then, i need to start investing right now for it to happen.

I watched the movie “me before you” last night with 2 colleagues last night and we realize that our current age generation are of 20’s 30’s and 40’s. I look at where they are now and where would they be heading and i cant help to wonder what i am the day i, in reverse, is to be catching a movie with a young 20 or 30 chap.

After the movie, we head for our much needed and anticipated dinner and drinks together. I was a little emotional of the sad ending and also troubled because of a far-away family issue that’s brewing again.

My mind skipped around the memories and my heart went on a little ride of up and down. I stopped and prayed.

Now that brings me back to the sermons that ignited me of my dreams to own my own business one day and also to be able to give back to the society.

I ended up not knowing what to do with all these feelings in me. I dont want to brush it aside but i dont know what to do with them either.

“You’re going to feel uncomfortable in your new world for a bit. It always does feel strange to be knocked out of your comfort zone but I hope you feel exhilarated too.”

IMAGINE DRAGONS// “Not Today”

There she goes in front of me
Take my life and set me free again
We’ll make a memory out of it
Holy road is at my back
Don’t look on, take me back again
We’ll make a memory out of it

We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts
If we wanna live young love we better start today

It’s gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling, I’m calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
But not today
Not today

There she goes in front of me
Take my life, set me free again
We’ll make a memory out of it
Holy road was at my back
Don’t look on, take me back again
We’ll make a memory out of it

We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts
If we wanna live young love we better start today

It’s gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling, I’m calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier

So come with me
You’ll come with me ey
So come with me
You’ll come with me ey
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today

It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
And easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling and calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today

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