While i am still doing okay, the news of others i am getting around and beyond me pains my heart. It feels like December is rather disastrous. I know it affected me too much with insomnia returned and oh I wish I have a fairy stick that with a whoosh and dance, everything and everyone will be just fine.. People will pull their shit and get together like they should right?
I pray with all my might but my heart just isnt at the right place. I wasnt in the best with god nor at my best either.
I laugh, i rant and i kept quiet. but still.. something kept eating me away. I am worried.
I know i need to let go, i know i need to trust, i know i know i know.. but the heart doesnt listen well this time.