Yasutoki Kariya’s Newton’s Cradle

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” ― Martin Luther King Jr

Yasutoki Kariya’s Newton’s Cradle.

What a depressing  day scrolling the social media news feed this week. The 4 year old girl getting senselessly hacked to death. The targeted at Christian bombing at a Pakistan park. The Egypt flight which thank god had no innocent blood spilled.

Tragic, loss of too short a life and hostage of innocent ones, senseless killing, rowdy protesting, hijacking, misleading headlines, hearts pouring. Sadness drove the rest up the wall, created fear which in turn got fist of anger up to create fear in their righteous and here we go the vicious cycle.

An act unforgivable but they cant be called cruel if they are unsound no? Suddenly everyone wants to solve and make the world sane but none with love or the intending to brighten the world with that unforgiving heart. I think that’s the saddest case of all.

The 4 year old’s nickname was 小燈泡 and her mother shared that just days before, she took her tea and sat by the window saying how wonderful the world is and how she can sit there all day admiring it. What a kiddo! I like to think her nickname is already a message to us. How we need light on earth, how we need to glow in kindness and mercy of each other to pass the light on.

May each light diminished on earth is one that will lit in heaven shining on us.



Leonard Nimoy, the incurable romantic

To live, to believe to feel again..

I am an incurable romantic

I believe in hope, dreams and decency
I believe in love,
Tenderness and kindness.

I believe in mankind.
I believe in goodness,
Mercy and charity
I believe in a universal spirit
believe in casting bread
Upon the waters.

I am awed by the snow-capped mountains
By the vastness of oceans.
I am moved by a couple
Of any age – holding hands
As they walk through city streets.

A living creature in pain
Makes me shudder with sorrow
A seagull’s cry fills me
With a sense of mystery.

A river or stream
Can move me to tears
A lake nestling in a valley
Can bring me peace.

– Leonard Nimoy


We are a very very small red dot, a lot way smaller than how some of us feel about our power in voting

Ever known of people who oppose for the sake of opposing? i know of 2 just this week and i wish i can shake some sense in them. Honestly i have so much hope in ‪GE2015‬ based on the comments i’ve seen on social media as many does see through these sugar coated polices that may be laced with chemical with no substance. It isn’t about which party i am supporting while another is not. It’s about what and why people are truly supporting for when voting. If you support and believe in their polices or stand, yes please vote wisely.

BUT NOT vote just to vote against what you think is needed in a “bigger picture”. Seriously! I totally agree with this article (note not just on the party he is supporting) that this is what LKY had fought his whole life for us and the way people vote to oppose for the sake of it will only lead the future government to a tinted path that not lead the nation but feed whichever votes gets them to be on the job (look at some of the hopeless yet hopeful opposition group incredibly brainless polices proposal) and we will end up like some of our infamous neighbors. You think it’s impossible? then dont make it any possible with your vote.

It pains me more because i cant get to vote due to work and i desperately wish some folks understand that by that our votes are not tools of revenge or a prank we wish scare someone. We are a very very small red dot, a lot way smaller than how some of us feel about our power in voting. ‪

Calvin Cheng

I am addressing this post to the fiscal conservatives like myself who have been disturbed and upset by the PAP’s leftward shift these four years.

We have seen increased social spending and welfarist policies, that although founded on sound financial pillars, will engender a dependent and entitled mindset amongst our population. I am very sure that the demands for the Pioneer Generation Package to be extended to other generations will grow more shrill as time goes by. The Pandora’s box has been opened.

We are disturbed by anti-business policies such as the tightening of foreign labour, causing many hardworking SME owners to lose their businesses and livelihoods, and the locals they employ to be made jobless. Already there are further demands for employers to be compelled to employ Singaporeans, regardless of how capable they are. This will only make our businesses less competitive globally.

We are upset that the Government does not seem to understand that increasing productivity is easier said than done. In the meantime, SMEs still need to function and need workers.

We are worried that HDB has gone into deficit in order to build more flats, and wonder whether an oversupply of houses is worse than just-in-time production.

We were astounded and nervous when the PAP was forced to declare its socialist roots.

But listen to me:

They had no choice but to move decisively to the left when all the Opposition parties massed against it are to the left.

They had no choice after their worst electoral performance since independence.

If we do not shore up support for the PAP now and make our voices heard these few days, it will only get worse.

Already, the leftward shift of the PAP has forced the Opposition to move further left into loony territory.

Minimum wage, unemployment benefits, increased social spending, higher taxes on the rich and MNCs – these are some of the policies the Opposition are proposing.

If the PAP loses more seats this election, they will have to move further left in order to outflank the Opposition.

These poisonous policies, policies that Lee Kuan Yew fought his whole life against, will become reality.

Is this what we want to see?

Do we want Singapore, built on the hard work and ingenuity of our forefathers, to become a lazy, entitled and bankrupt populist and socialist state?

If you are a fiscal and political conservative like me, we have a week to make our voices heard.

There is no party to the right of the PAP to speak for us.

Speak now, for yourselves, before it is too late.


Rick Warren’s Forgive Because You Are Forgiven

my heart is still sealed but I’m listening..

Forgive Because You Are Forgiven by Rick Warren

“For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” (Matthew 6:15 NIV)

I have no doubt that many of you are carrying some deep wounds that you’ve carried for months, maybe even years. When you think about that person who hurt you, it’s still as fresh as if it happened this morning. The pain is still there, and you’re still filled with resentment.

You say, “Why in the world should I forgive that person who hurt me so much? You have no idea how much they hurt me. Why should I offer grace to that person?”

You ought to do it for three reasons:

1. You need to be gracious to others and forgive those who’ve hurt you because God has been gracious to you.

You will never have to forgive anyone else more than Jesus Christ has already forgiven you. You should consider that you haven’t always gotten what you deserved, either. God has been gracious with you. Now be gracious with others.

2. You need to forgive others because the alternative is bitterness.

Scientists tell us that resentment is the unhealthiest emotion there is. It always hurts you more than anybody else! Resentment will not change the past, and it won’t solve the problem. It doesn’t even make you feel better. In fact, it makes you feel worse.

The Bible says in Hebrews 12:15, “Be careful that none of you fails to respond to the grace which God gives, for if he does there can very easily spring up in him a bitter spirit which is not only bad in itself but can also poison the lives of many others” (Phillips).

3. You need to show grace to and forgive others because God expects you to do it.

Matthew 6:15 says, “For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins” (NIV). Jesus says we cannot receive what we are unwilling to give. If you say, “I could never forgive that person,” then I hope you never sin. If you just don’t feel like doing it, do it anyway, because it’s the right thing to do.

The reason why some of you have a hard time forgiving is because you don’t feel forgiven. Would you pray this prayer of liberation and freedom in your heart?

“Dear Jesus Christ, you know I’ve been hurt by others. You know that my resentment has made me act in ways that have been unreasonable and unhelpful and unhealthy. I need your power to release and forgive those who’ve hurt me so I can stop letting them control me. Would you please replace my hurt with the peace of Jesus Christ? God, I realize that I’ve hurt a lot of other people with my habits and my bad decisions and my hang-ups. Would you please forgive me for the way I’ve hurt others? Help me to make a list of those I’ve harmed and in the right way at the right time to humbly seek to make amends. Jesus Christ, I want to refocus my life on you. I want to face the future courageously with love and peace in my heart. Would you replace my resentment with your love, my bitterness with your grace? Thank you for your graciousness to me. Thank you for forgiving me for the things that I’ve done wrong. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”


Rick Warren’s what is real forgiveness?

Forgiveness always have me choke at heart and this message though, yet to be able unlock it, speaks volume.

Real forgiveness is not a cheap term you just throw out that instantly makes everybody feel better. That’s not real forgiveness.

The Bible says real forgiveness is four things:

Forgiveness is remembering how much you’ve been forgiven.

“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you” (Ephesians 4:32 NIV). This is the starting point for genuine forgiveness. If you don’t feel forgiven, you won’t want to forgive anybody else. If you’re hard on yourself, you’re going to be hard on others. But the more grace you receive from God, the more gracious you’re going to be to others. The more forgiven you feel by God, the more forgiving you’ll be toward others.

Forgiveness is relinquishing your right to get even.

Romans 12:19 says, “Never avenge yourselves. Leave that to God, for he has said that he will repay those who deserve it” (LB). Life is not fair, but one day God’s going to settle the score. He’s going to right the wrongs. So, who can get better justice — you or God?

Forgiveness is responding to evil with good.

The Bible says in Luke 6:27-28, “Do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you” (NIV). How can you tell when you’ve really forgiven somebody? When you can look at that person’s hurt and not just your own and pray for God to bless him or her.

You ask, “How could I ever do that for the person who’s hurt me?” You can’t unless you allow the love of God to penetrate your life. Only the love of God can help you do something like that.

Forgiveness is repeating the process as long as necessary.

“Peter came to him and asked, ‘Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?’” (Jewish law said you had to forgive a person three times, so Peter doubled it and threw one in for good measure.) “‘No, not seven times,’ Jesus replied, ‘but seventy times seven!’” (Matthew 18:21-22 NLT)

How long do you have to keep forgiving a person? As long as it takes. You have to keep forgiving that person until the pain stops and the desire to get revenge goes away.

Talk It Over

  • What difference has God’s grace made in your life? How can you extend that grace to others?

  • For whom do you need to pray God’s blessing today? What hurt do you need to let go of?

  • What good can you do for someone in your life who hates you or who has wronged you?


Christina Aguilera is saying something with a great big world

I love Christina Augilera, the way she brings music to live never fails to amaze me. This is so simple, yet raw to emotion that touched me.

Say Something (feat. A Great Big World)
Christina Aguilera

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’ll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I’m still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye

Say something, I’m giving up on you
And I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
And anywhere, I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

Say something, I’m giving up on you
Say something

Beyond that, I am getting restless and tired of managing my parent’s marriage and I been so tempted to just give up and leave so this is sings to my heart.


Dear Me, A Letter To My Sixteen-Year-Old-Self

Dear ling,

Just 2 hours ago, barely minutes after you turn twenty six (sounds awfully old to you now isn’t it?), you had the most lovely fright of your life. Sounds confusing? You see.. a bunch of lovelies decide to surprise you at your hotel at midnight by hiding in your room with a homemade cake and eerie music in the dark (yes, this is not a typo).

The panic attack with chills was immediately replace with warmth and love when you finally realize what is happening. The first hour of your birthday was totally unexpected but yet something you would had imagined as the perfect start for it was filled with presences and voices (your bff calling from Indonesia just to wish you Happy Birthday) of folks you hold close to you heart.

I can’t remember how you will spend your sixteen’s birthday but if my memory is still accurate (pardon me, it’s been 10 years), you should have collected your prelim results by now and is at your last leap for your O’levels examination. Which probably means no celebration but only lots and lots of “last minute hugging the Buddha leg” studying.

You be surprise to know that till now, my heart still swells with great gratitude as if i was still sixteen just yesterday whenever I recall my last year in secondary school.

It was a year that for the first time you have met people who had greater faith in you than yourself – the wonderful teachers and the two great principals. For while most students of the similar results of yours were retained in secondary 3, they not only promoted you to secondary four despite you failing most subjects, most importantly they were there at every leap pushing all of us and sacrificing personal time to give us after lesson tuition which were like vitamins, boosting our education health.

It will be a  year of surprise for many situation was turned around for you and you would be glad to know that all efforts were paid off as you passed every subject and made it to polytechnic (although you thought you didn’t when you were collecting your result slips thanks to your cheeky form teacher). You will have an unforgettable 16 my dear, a good one in the end.

There are quite a lot of things that will happen over the next 10 years and here are the top 10 things for you to know.

  • You will grow weaker instead but it’s actually okay.
    Most people think that they will grow stronger as they grow older but the truth is, at least for you, you will grow weaker. You keep wanting to get more but you will also realize that the more you have, the more you got to lose and battles will break you bit by bit.You always pride yourself being the strong one, being the pillar but to truth to be told, what you are doing now is just shutting down your emotions and locking your fears. It might be fine for now but in coming years, you will realize there will be periods of time when the box can no longer contain your fears and there will be days that there no lock can hold them and it can consume you. So I am telling you right now, it’s is okay to be scared and in fact only by facing your fears, then can you embrace it and overcome battles in life.
  • Time is the indeed the best medicine in life.
    By now you would have realize that there are a lot of things beyond your control and you might think that growing older, being able to support yourself will set you free It is only true to a certain extend and I’m sorry to have to tell you that there are actually even darker days ahead.Even though your ability to support yourself helps but only time can heal some of the deepest wounds and the broken relationships that you think you might never ever recover from. So give yourself time, slow down, listen to yourself, pace yourself, and give yourself the best medicine in life so you can enjoy your life better.
  • Never say never.
    Not because you don’t know yourself well, but because you don’t know what changes the future can bring in and around you. So do yourself a favor, don’t ever be too sure of anything in life so to expect the unexpected.
  • Relationship does get rekindled.
    Remember how you are always lamenting about how distant you feel towards your relative and cousins in Singapore and how ironic that you feel closer to your Malaysian cousin whom you only meet once in a year instead?The good news is now, your relationship with them are revitalized and they no longer feels like stranger to you. It almost feel like those childhood times again, where you guys hid under the blanket and watch that terrifying witch show almost every year.
  • You will get past the “I feel so awkward” stage.
    Right now, one of the most dreadful things is meeting your neighbor in the lift or seeing an old friend whom you lose touch when you are out shipping. Are you still going to the extent of avoiding eye contact just to pretend you didn’t see them for you have no idea what to say if they recognize you.?The good thing is your socializing skills actually gets improve over the years, still not great yet but much better. At least I can say 10 years later, you won’t sweat about it anymore.
  • Friendship.
    Right now numbers counts but 10 years later, you realize only that few matters. It shouldn’t be of a surprise that the longest friendship you have will be with Christine whom is actually married now (you might want to tell her she will meet her future husband whens she in poly) but you be surprised to know that your bff now is kat and with her, it stands for “best bitch forever” instead of the usual best friend forever. In a very good way i mean.One of your favorite clique are made of the most random and least closest people around you now (you be glad to know siew ting is one of them but seriously, check out hweeli who almost doesn’t exist in the class for she dash home for 5566 right after school and Kirk Lim who….. is.. oh well, you will know later).

    I cant tell you much about the others for you have no idea who they are now but you will get to meet one bunch in your 2nd year of poly and another 3rd year in HP (oh yes, you are actually going to work in HP and meet many wonderful and interesting people!)

  • Weight.
    Nope, I am sorry to tell you that 10 years later you are still not slim and have not attempted any diet yet.
  • Worse people, best lessons.
    If you think some folks in school are mean idiots, wait till you get to poly and start working. You will question god about this but you will be thankful for them for the more awful they are, the nicer you will learn to be as you would not want to be them. You will see some of your flaws in them and thanks to them, you be able to fix it while you are young.
  • Be good.
    Always stay true to yourself and be good. You are going to face a lot of questions and need to make a lot of decision in the next 10 years which will torment you but in the end, there is actually only one question to ask yourself.“Will I regret this?” and rest assured that your heart always answers, just please make sure your brain listen..
  • All things happen for a reason.
    Believe in that, you don’t need to know the reason but just believe it that for god has a plan for you and even at the worst situation, it is for a good reason. And yes, you are a Christian now.

For the next 10 years, you will lose and find many things but on 24th August 2013, you are happy.

With all my love,