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Alfred Sim’s with his 最美的时光 for 十年。。。你还好吗?


是否有一段时光 让你想到就心酸
为了爱曾经什么 都不管
我们用青春 去交换疯狂
让日子难忘 却忘了 学会原谅
 
我们其实都一样
用委屈成全梦想
微笑不想太轻易 被看穿
 
如果能重来 你是否还会 认定就不放
还是只想 找个人相伴
 
当回忆在夜里不停回放
卸下疲惫和不安
开始懂得 享受平凡的陪伴
 
当幸福回到最初的模样
谁在你身旁 那些远方
一直都在手上
 
当幸福回到最初的模样
谁在你身旁 原来简单
是最美的时光
 
就当幸福回到那最初的模样
谁在你身旁
那些远方
一直都在手上
是否有一段时光
One a while, people say things like “I wish i can turn back time or go back to my childhood days to relieve those carefree days” while I shudder with the thought. If given anything, I would choose never to go back to those days. It was a nightmare that i would wish upon no one.
So no thank you, i am happier and at a better peace now than then
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doors shut and some not


You’re altogether lovely

Altogether worthy

Altogether wonderful to me – Here i am to worship

Thank you. For stopping the temptations of heart matters. For your presence on paths and words paved when i am feeling fear and uneasy. For the peace tonight and showing me how i should and can trust and lean on you. To doors i wanted to shut for the wrong reasons but didnt because of you and to doors shuts because you know it what i need. 

for the paths crossed and some perhaps not to be. 

I love you lord.

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Be the solution


“If you cant be the solution, let it be that you are not at least not part of the problem”

JUST last night, this advise kept ringing in my head and i almost wanted to blurt it out loud. I could still recall so clearly that this advise was given during the prefectorial camp when I was just a teenager and it was after a bunch of us kept shooting down some of the proposed ideas how to manage the rowdy student during recess with justification of how it had not worked previously.

We thought we were being practical and helpful, bringing the session alive and filtering useless ways that was tested before and although we all quietly nodded our heads but most of us felt indignant when told off and we secretly just felt that “aiyah these adults cant handle the hard truth, just wanna finish the session without disturbance“

As an adult now, i realized actually it’s was just us being si gin na because of the way we have “showed” our help. It’s the way we booed, showed our attitude, got frustrated and insisted our opinions out loud, causing distress to the teachers with our self righteousness.

Over the years, I see how harmful such self righteous can be and what a pain in the ass it can be to dealing with folks like that.

Righteousness should be like the fireplace that warms the heart but self-righteousness is like that unwanted forest fire burning away, giving haze and draining people health.

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But to be honest, i still think that those proposed ideas were crap though
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Leonard Nimoy, the incurable romantic


To live, to believe to feel again..

I am an incurable romantic

I believe in hope, dreams and decency
I believe in love,
Tenderness and kindness.

I believe in mankind.
I believe in goodness,
Mercy and charity
I believe in a universal spirit
believe in casting bread
Upon the waters.

I am awed by the snow-capped mountains
By the vastness of oceans.
I am moved by a couple
Of any age – holding hands
As they walk through city streets.

A living creature in pain
Makes me shudder with sorrow
A seagull’s cry fills me
With a sense of mystery.

A river or stream
Can move me to tears
A lake nestling in a valley
Can bring me peace.

– Leonard Nimoy

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Child vs adult


Do you know why kids are the easiest to love?

I think it’s because they are simple in how they think, feel and direct in expressing it. There is no hidden message, denial mode nor agenda on whatever they say.

You know what they want and what they dont and can give accordingly. It’s easy to interact because it’s so clear.

Recently i feel really drained. Of dealing with people who are tainted and is damnest hard to communicate and deal esp with in time when there is an issue.

It’s the most irony of how they complicate their life and issues with emotions and insist in claiming to be nonchalant. They will make a point and insist on it which makes it so painfully obvious

There is no need to pretend to be cool a out it when you are not cool about it.

Gotta pray for patience and grace for me to lean on and let them be. Trying my best to be understanding and tactful and cant help but to wish more people can be REALLY simple instead of just claiming.
Be honest and transparent. Be sensitive but not petty. Be nice not PR. Be real not fake. Be truthful on how you feel vs what claim. Isnt it so much better and easier?

Oh well, to each its own.. Everyone have their demon to slay. I’m getting more frustrated with how affected i am, just wish i can stop getting affected by all these murky toxic of others

heeh! just realize the sticker meant that woman always see themselves fatter 😓

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Tale as old as time


My favorite disney gal of all and oh how this classic gem sparkles every single time.

“Beauty And The Beast”

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Just a little change
Small, to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

[2x]
Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast.

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast.

Beauty and the beast.

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goodbye and hello 2014


I’ve been intending to blog like I used to for the longest time but i guess i have gone past the phrase of blogging my life vs now blogging thoughts. Let’s see if I can get that drive back, I do used to enjoy reading my archive and know what happened when.

I don’t recalled when i last did i recapped of the year but somehow the idea keep coming to my mind this year. Might be because i was sorting out my album and realized the travel trips these recent years, particularly 2013 was more than i had recalled.

travel as of 2013

It seems like i been covering 3 trips every year since 2011 which was also the start of my new job and also the year after I have finally graduated. For someone who barely traveled for the past 20 years, I have never imagine a life like that at twenties and I am thankful for it.

Here’s 2011….

travel 2011

It started with meeting Kat in Indonesia and this time instead of Jakarta, we venture out to bandung as she is familiar with that place due to work. I recalled it was during the Singapore election period and practically didn’t get to sleep for 3 days straight due to *ahem* many reasons and once again, her father issue with fat folks disturbed me. That aside, all i did was booked air ticket and the minute I arrive till I left, I was all kat’s and we had a blast eating, shopping, swimming in the dark getting freak out and lots of fun! I was really well taken care of by my fbf #favBitchForever

Danang was probably the most unforgettable trip of all for it was the first and hopefully the last time ever that i will missed a flight DESPITE checking in on time. Super wtf moment as i stood there helplessly for 30 mins, watching the plane leave without us. We were so jinxed with our flight through out the whole trip (I hate you jet star for all damn connecting flight) and every single flight screwed up with long hours of delays (it took us 15 hours to get there and another 10 to get back). It’s probably the last trip with Jing Wee too as shortly after the trip she got hitched and had a baby (turn out she was already pregnant during the trip) and went MIA since. All the huge and little hiccups but overall pleasant holiday as i lugged back a bag of custom made clothes really made this the most unforgettable trip of the year.

Bali was interesting with the tais tais who had so kindly excluded me in the villa payment, giving me a treat (though at the end of it, I wished i didnt take it because of a remark) and to be honest, despite it being enjoyable, I am not sure i have really visited Bali at the end of the day for I have not touched any of the famous sand beaches and all i recalled was the expensive dining places that had me at awed. Was a really different trip that I probably would only enjoy with these Tais Tais who were kind enough to ask me along.

Batam was a last minute trip with folks I barely know a year but yet are super close friends/colleague now. It was fuss free, basically only chilling, playing majong, eating maggie every meal. Was a really good ending trip all in all.

travel 2012

2012 was really special and every trip is so memorable!

Starting with my first ever business trip to shanghai! I have been quite demoralized and has very low job confidence from my previous job (which in a twist of story, i realize that ex-boss was being kept out of this event) so when I was asked along this business trip, i really couldn’t believe it. It was such an….. adventure! I was practically squealing when i saw the amazzzzzing view from my hotel (which was like 6 stars, a luxury I know I wont be able to afford on my own). The adventure starts from working like mad to getting my valuables stolen, sitting in a police car, a scary time getting my police report to my extended time to explore from Shanghai to Hangzou alone (which also made me realize traveling alone can be quite lonely). Despite the huge hiccup, I managed to recover my loss thanks to insurance and company’s claims. I must say I am truly and really blessed.

Hong Kong in June made me missed Singapore’s weather. Summer in Hong Kong is no joke. It was more of a eating trip, so much eating that i went puking one of the evening. We are practically 5 meals a day and every single meal is so good! Hong Kong is truly a place to eat shop eat shop eat shop just as it’s iconic advertisement.

Sydney was fantastic for i saw snow and ski/snowboard for the first time! nothing beats that and oh boy how my friend and i combed the supermarkets and you’ll be surprised how much one can spend there. Though i cant say for my friend who really cant seems to survive in western country, eating western food most of the time but i had a reallly good time and would like to explore more of wonderful Australia.

travel 2013

Taiwan with the amazing 3 girls i met at work and now we became so close that it’s hard to imagine going work without seeing them. I thought it would be perfect but to be honest, there were a lot of times i wish I am back in Singapore. There were too much unexpected hiccups. Apart of snoring every single night (thank god for ear plugs), the gals had struck a silly chord of pretending to be from China with a countryside accent which got me really irritated as they do that everyday and I was quite embarrassed at some point. Other than that, my friend got so sea sick from dolphin sight seeing, I messed up out Ali-san B&B boking, my taiwan friend messing my last night and got me quite upset before i left. However Hua Lien really amazed me with the good food, good view and good people which i cant stop raving to others when I am back.

Thailand was stressing as it’s the first time i brought my dad out alone on a trip overseas. My dad has alot of  issues on health and it really was stressful for meespecially when he couldnt wait to buy his first whiskey at the airport which got me in tears at the custom counter. The bangkok hotel condition and location was terrible and my dad had gotten MIA a couple of times and due to his drinking, his gastric started acting up during almost the whole time we were in bangkok. I thought things will be better when we reached hua hin but i end up in hospital thanks to the hotel getting me food poisoning which needed me to be on drips. IT was a trip that i had been debating for the longest time and despite all, I am glad i did it although it really shaken my faith and I am not sure if i will do it again.

Of all, I think it’s obvious I truly enjoyed langkawi most as it fulfilled my wish of visiting my grandma at her kumpong and was the trip with the least hiccups. i guess I truly relax throughout the whole trip and enjoyed every moment. Even the hiccup of missing out snorkeling didnt get me upset as with my jie meis, every day and night was so fun! Tried motor boat and had an embarrassing time para skiing too. From land of duty free and watching my friends get drunk plus i get to drive too (I think that was the bonus)! It was amazing Langkawi. All in all, I had a blast ;D

Other than the trips, I also had an awesome birthday that is really the best so far.
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I really felt blessed throughout August. It have gotten a free hotel stay for 4 days, lovely surprise party by my beloved and close friends and had a great time in most celebration. Am also learning to let go the expectation of presents and i think because of it, i had a better time.

2013

The past years had been up and down of extreme peaks, losing my granny and 3rd grand uncle, fighting a lot of internal battle and battles at home.. There so much more to learn like learning to love myself more, learning how to juggle who to keep and who to let go in life. There so much as usual, at some point, some closure of fear, some open of hearts, growing stronger in ties, growing weaker in mental health.

As for 2014, I have epi lasik, Batam, Japan and Korea coming up! I can hardly wait! Most people say “please be good 2014” but I’m gonna say

“I’ll be good and make 2014 good with Jesus!”