Be the solution

“If you cant be the solution, let it be that you are not at least not part of the problem”

JUST last night, this advise kept ringing in my head and i almost wanted to blurt it out loud. I could still recall so clearly that this advise was given during the prefectorial camp when I was just a teenager and it was after a bunch of us kept shooting down some of the proposed ideas how to manage the rowdy student during recess with justification of how it had not worked previously.

We thought we were being practical and helpful, bringing the session alive and filtering useless ways that was tested before and although we all quietly nodded our heads but most of us felt indignant when told off and we secretly just felt that “aiyah these adults cant handle the hard truth, just wanna finish the session without disturbance“

As an adult now, i realized actually it’s was just us being si gin na because of the way we have “showed” our help. It’s the way we booed, showed our attitude, got frustrated and insisted our opinions out loud, causing distress to the teachers with our self righteousness.

Over the years, I see how harmful such self righteous can be and what a pain in the ass it can be to dealing with folks like that.

Righteousness should be like the fireplace that warms the heart but self-righteousness is like that unwanted forest fire burning away, giving haze and draining people health.

But to be honest, i still think that those proposed ideas were crap though

Love Live Life

Last Saturday church service was different and… simply moving.

For once, we are not focusing on what a child of god should do, can do, will do, had done.

This time it was just about god. simply him.
Feeling him, drawing closer, worshiping. It was really nice to have the worship songs in between the sharing of word from pastor kong.

In such tough times, i am glad the pastors choose not to weaken, not to dampened but instead work even harder in strengthening the church and the relationship with god.

it reminds me of the lovely twin, Jayseelee whom shared their story of their mother whom lost her life to cancer.

“it’s not only during the good times,when it is easy to praise the lord, when everything is going right..but when things are tough. when to us human beings, we dont understand what good is there in that situation. THAT is when you have to choose to REJOICE”

During the service, it really feel like there is just a clean state of land between god and me, there is nothing between us and i can see and reach to him easily.

I was really thankful for this service and the great leaders who are behind it.

At the end, i love this quote shared who reminded us the most basic of how to live a life.

Love living. Live loving.

-Sun Ho (twitter)


When hurt

Forgiveness. Always said easy but harder in action… and in heart but yet essential for one to move on from hurt or growing anger.

I know this is very hard. It’s certainly difficult for me to forgive and bless my enemies at times. But when you have been hurt by someone, you need to do what the Bible instructs: Don’t curse it, don’t nurse it, don’t rehearse it, but disperse it and trust God to reverse it

Don’t curse it, don’t nurse it, don’t rehearse it, but disperse it and trust God to reverse it.

– Kong Hee

in 2012, i have faced one of my biggest obstacles in life to forgive again. It wasnt easy at all, i faced it again and again with tears and it was the hardest for i couldn’t even face him for months, nearly a year which during so, i flinched and freeze at merely just the sight of him which sets my heart on fear. Once i nearly screamed just when i was back from holiday and have gotten used not seeing him for a period of time. .

With my faith in god growing each day, i know it’s gonna be easier for me to forgive in the future, esp with these wise words in bold above.


before time forces you

Granny is in hospital and many things keep running in my head

how had she lived her life….

how terrible it must be to be in pain for just breathing….

how i wouldnt want people to stare and keep looking at me when i am about to doze it..

How….. she is at the last leap

Learn to appreciate the things you have before time forces you appreciate the things you once had.


for better thing can fall together

Wise words…

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together

-Marilyn Monroe

Something shitty happened at work because of ms yucky

It made my trust and doubt took another different balance on the see saw
at the end of the day, people get agitated, upset and things start to get confusing

Once screwed (again), you dont know who you are trust with words anymore… esp when unnecessary drama and lies start floating

it start to became a bit too much
and it is so not worth it

so in the end, i deleted smses, and decide to just “Que Sera Sera”

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be
Will I be pretty will I be rich
Here’s what she said to me

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows day after day
Here’s what my sweetheart said

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother what will I be
Will I be handsome will I be rich
I tell them tenderly

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be
Que Sera Sera