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I’m a Logistician


Logistician Personality (ISTJ, -A/-T)

My observation is that whenever one person is found adequate to the discharge of a duty… it is worse executed by two persons, and scarcely done at all if three or more are employed therein.

George Washington

The Logistician personality type is thought to be the most abundant, making up around 13% of the population. Their defining characteristics of integrity, practical logic and tireless dedication to duty make Logisticians a vital core to many families, as well as organizations that uphold traditions, rules and standards, such as law offices, regulatory bodies and military. People with the Logistician personality type enjoy taking responsibility for their actions, and take pride in the work they do – when working towards a goal, Logisticians hold back none of their time and energy completing each relevant task with accuracy and patience.

Logistician (ISTJ) personality

Logisticians don’t make many assumptions, preferring instead to analyze their surroundings, check their facts and arrive at practical courses of action. Logistician personalities are no-nonsense, and when they’ve made a decision, they will relay the facts necessary to achieve their goal, expecting others to grasp the situation immediately and take action. Logisticians have little tolerance for indecisiveness, but lose patience even more quickly if their chosen course is challenged with impractical theories, especially if they ignore key details – if challenges becomes time-consuming debates, Logisticians can become noticeably angry as deadlines tick nearer.

Associate With Those of Good Quality if You Esteem Your Reputation…

When Logisticians say they are going to get something done, they do it, meeting their obligations no matter the personal cost, and they are baffled by people who don’t hold their own word in the same respect. Combining laziness and dishonesty is the quickest way to get on Logisticians’ bad side. Consequently, people with the Logistician personality type often prefer to work alone, or at least have their authority clearly established by hierarchy, where they can set and achieve their goals without debate or worry over other’s reliability.

Logisticians have sharp, fact-based minds, and prefer autonomy and self-sufficiency to reliance on someone or something. Dependency on others is often seen by Logisticians as a weakness, and their passion for duty, dependability and impeccable personal integrity forbid falling into such a trap.

This sense of personal integrity is core to Logisticians, and goes beyond their own minds – Logistician personalities adhere to established rules and guidelines regardless of cost, reporting their own mistakes and telling the truth even when the consequences for doing so could be disastrous. To Logisticians, honesty is far more important than emotional considerations, and their blunt approach leaves others with the false impression that Logisticians are cold, or even robotic. People with this type may struggle to express emotion or affection outwardly, but the suggestion that they don’t feel, or worse have no personality at all, is deeply hurtful.

…For It Is Better to Be Alone Than in Bad Company

Logisticians’ dedication is an excellent quality, allowing them to accomplish much, but it is also a core weakness that less scrupulous individuals take advantage of. Logisticians seek stability and security, considering it their duty to maintain a smooth operation, and they may find that their coworkers and significant others shift their responsibilities onto them, knowing that they will always take up the slack. Logisticians tend to keep their opinions to themselves and let the facts do the talking, but it can be a long time before observable evidence tells the whole story.

Logisticians need to remember to take care of themselves – their stubborn dedication to stability and efficiency can compromise those goals in the long term as others lean ever-harder on them, creating an emotional strain that can go unexpressed for years, only finally coming out after it’s too late to fix. If they can find coworkers and spouses who genuinely appreciate and complement their qualities, who enjoy the brightness, clarity and dependability that they offer, Logisticians will find that their stabilizing role is a tremendously satisfying one, knowing that they are part of a system that works.

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doors shut and some not


You’re altogether lovely

Altogether worthy

Altogether wonderful to me – Here i am to worship

Thank you. For stopping the temptations of heart matters. For your presence on paths and words paved when i am feeling fear and uneasy. For the peace tonight and showing me how i should and can trust and lean on you. To doors i wanted to shut for the wrong reasons but didnt because of you and to doors shuts because you know it what i need. 

for the paths crossed and some perhaps not to be. 

I love you lord.

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Dec-aster 



BECAUSE IT’s CHRISTMAS so the truth to be told.. While my heart is full but also heavy at the same time this December. 

While i am still doing okay, the news of others i am getting around and beyond me pains my heart. It feels like December is rather disastrous. I know it affected me too much with insomnia returned and oh I wish I have a fairy stick that with a whoosh and dance, everything and everyone will be just fine.. People will pull their shit and get together like they should right?


I feel myself distancing and letting myself go numb with after rounds of frustration or helpless-ness. And then my heart distanced too. I cant fully celebrate or feel the moments well anymore. 

I pray with all my might but my heart just isnt at the right place. I wasnt in the best with god nor at my best either. 

I laugh, i rant and i kept quiet. but still.. something kept eating me away. I am worried. 

I know i need to let go, i know i need to trust, i know i know i know.. but the heart doesnt listen well this time. 


I dont know why but I be fine. 

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To you, with hope


Dear friend,

How have you been? I hope you have stopped struggling and is loved and love better. For what it’s worth, i hope you know you are still loved and i still care and think about you but i just cant. It’s probably for the best then to struggle with expectations for the sake of it. Labels never quite work well for me.

I wish you well..

xoxo,
with all the love and hope i wish i can send

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Me before…



The last couple of days had me questioning myself about what’s next.

And you see, since young, I pretty much think VERY VERY FAR ahead.  If I get a new pencil box at 7, I be estimating when will my current one be worn enough for replacement and sometimes it could be when till I am 8 for I like to use new things at new start.

So when i say “next”, I meant in my 40’s. For the next 6 years, my focus is to own a place of my own and how to and if i should start exploring financial freedom ways from now. If possible, i really like to study or live abroad for a year while in my 30s.

And what comes after that is pretty much of a blank canvas. Of course life goes on from there if all goes well but if i want things to happen then, i need to start investing right now for it to happen.

I watched the movie “me before you” last night with 2 colleagues last night and we realize that our current age generation are of 20’s 30’s and 40’s. I look at where they are now and where would they be heading and i cant help to wonder what i am the day i, in reverse, is to be catching a movie with a young 20 or 30 chap.

After the movie, we head for our much needed and anticipated dinner and drinks together. I was a little emotional of the sad ending and also troubled because of a far-away family issue that’s brewing again.

My mind skipped around the memories and my heart went on a little ride of up and down. I stopped and prayed.

Now that brings me back to the sermons that ignited me of my dreams to own my own business one day and also to be able to give back to the society.

I ended up not knowing what to do with all these feelings in me. I dont want to brush it aside but i dont know what to do with them either.

“You’re going to feel uncomfortable in your new world for a bit. It always does feel strange to be knocked out of your comfort zone but I hope you feel exhilarated too.”

IMAGINE DRAGONS// “Not Today”

There she goes in front of me
Take my life and set me free again
We’ll make a memory out of it
Holy road is at my back
Don’t look on, take me back again
We’ll make a memory out of it

We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts
If we wanna live young love we better start today

It’s gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling, I’m calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
But not today
Not today

There she goes in front of me
Take my life, set me free again
We’ll make a memory out of it
Holy road was at my back
Don’t look on, take me back again
We’ll make a memory out of it

We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts
If we wanna live young love we better start today

It’s gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling, I’m calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier

So come with me
You’ll come with me ey
So come with me
You’ll come with me ey
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today

It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
And easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling and calling
And it isn’t over unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today
Not today

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Be the solution


“If you cant be the solution, let it be that you are not at least not part of the problem”

JUST last night, this advise kept ringing in my head and i almost wanted to blurt it out loud. I could still recall so clearly that this advise was given during the prefectorial camp when I was just a teenager and it was after a bunch of us kept shooting down some of the proposed ideas how to manage the rowdy student during recess with justification of how it had not worked previously.

We thought we were being practical and helpful, bringing the session alive and filtering useless ways that was tested before and although we all quietly nodded our heads but most of us felt indignant when told off and we secretly just felt that “aiyah these adults cant handle the hard truth, just wanna finish the session without disturbance“

As an adult now, i realized actually it’s was just us being si gin na because of the way we have “showed” our help. It’s the way we booed, showed our attitude, got frustrated and insisted our opinions out loud, causing distress to the teachers with our self righteousness.

Over the years, I see how harmful such self righteous can be and what a pain in the ass it can be to dealing with folks like that.

Righteousness should be like the fireplace that warms the heart but self-righteousness is like that unwanted forest fire burning away, giving haze and draining people health.

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But to be honest, i still think that those proposed ideas were crap though
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Dusk


Art was never a subject I had excel nor had studied but thanks to the line app I have recently downloaded (to distract myself as i am limited by my data these days), i’m enjoying the the mixture of colour more than i thought i would be.

I started with just trying to blend with shades of blue and before i know it, the picture just came. I’ve always love dusk best because it’s colours can be more unpredictable and always of more mix of so many lovely different colour palette.

light will get u home

When it was all done, it reminded me of this song


If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there’s only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home,
boy, my love will get you home.