Faith Hill and her where are you Christmas

The Piano guys, as usual, pull the strings of my heart. Their amazing talent always makes a song shine like diamonds. This was no exception and the minute the little girl, Sarah, open her mouth, my heart was warmed like golden syrup over pancakes.

This song sings of my relationship and Journey with god, not, Jesus actually. All my life, like many others, we all know there is a god there, in fact all religion centered around one god but not many of us have strong faith of any religion.


Last weekend, I attended the candlelight service and the reason why i went or rather know of this amazing service was because my sister asked me along to service the week before.


I have not stepped in to CHC for a long time but i remembered my last visit was the start of the another build and arise campaign which i felt rather uncomfortable that donations are appealed needed again for the new church despite the fact that the church had raised so much money to get to suntec.

I remembered vividly that Pastor Kong Hee had mentioned in the last donation appeal that the reason of moving to suntech is so that the church does not need to solely depend on donation in future but the shares/rent that will help cover expenses needed to host such a big growing church. I thought it was a really bold and wise move then.

But on the 2nd appeal so to increase the stakes of the shares to become co-owners… i was really uncomfortable and wonder if here was really such a need. Ever since, i stop going to CHC and have gotten comfortable with another Presbyterian church i will occasionally go and it’s been nearly a year since then..

This year wasn’t easy, but i had my bible, prayers and angels in my life. I screamed, cried, hugged, smiled, laughed so hard. I didnt enjoyed the service i went with my sister for i felt that the pastor’s preaching was too focused on power of self and as usual the exchange of god’s promises for donation was another subject i was uncomfortable with.

Luckily at the end, there was a reminder of the next week service, which was the candle light service. My favorite service and also my first service in CHC. I still remembered initiating to go to that service with my then, no yet close cousin.


At that point, all i want is to witness of that glow of light spreading in a big hall that i find fascinating. But my last service there, i learn and see something else. It wasn’t the glow of light, it was the light of Jesus that lit up the hall.



When Pastor Kong preach about Jesus being the light and savior of the world, I got what he meant. As the lights get passed down from the stage  and slowly passed on, spreading the glow, I see faith being lit up in each Christian. I feel Jesus in everyone that everyone believe in him. It was such a surreal moment.






I cant remember when i became a Christian or can I be qualified to me one. I don’t seems to have a stand point or a mark on my journey that shouts ” I AM A CHRISTIAN” but every step i take marks me one..



Later that night, I was invited to my cousin and her husband’s new flat for a sleep over.. That night we talk about salvation through Jesus and as Roger preached and defined salvation from the bible of God’s words. To not just believe in god, but believe Jesus was truly the son of god and only through him, we can be saved. My heart skipped a beat…



It dawned to me there is so much more of me to grow in faith and my path in Christianity still has a long way to go…



May my faith grow stronger.

And Christmas means the celebrating the birth of Jesus and like this song.. like the below lyrics…

I feel you, Christmas, I know I’ve found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with ♥




Songwriters: Carey, Mariah; Horner, James; Jennings, Will;
Singer : Faith Hill

Where are you Christmas? Why can’t I find you?
Why have you gone away?
Where is the laughter you used to bring me?
Why can’t I hear music play?

My world is changing
I’m rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too?

Where are you Christmas? Do you remember
The one you used to know?
I’m not the same one, see what the time’s done
Is that why you have let me go?

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you, Christmas, I know I’ve found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas?
Fills your heart with love